Sunday 10th March, 2013
October 12th 2010, Albuquerque, NM, USA
I'm 39 and 11 days old, which is clearly much too old to be any kind of musician on the road with a rock band. I'm playing with English musician Frank Turner as a member of his backing band. The distinction is necessary, since things are different to being a member of a band, which is somewhere near the crux of this little piece of writing. Even if it is an illusion (which it almost always is), every member of a band has their say, tied to their stake in the success or failure of the group as a whole, although, as we shall see later, even-handed democracy is never a true option. For a backing band though there is no grey area. Whoever you're playing for is the boss, the big numero uno, El Jefe, head honcho; and whatever they say goes.
Such is the way it has been since early 2007, when I first started playing with Frank1, and now. So why has it particularly exercised me tonight? Let's rewind a couple of days and contextualize a little shall we?
We flew in to Austin, Texas to begin our tour a few days ago, on 9th October. By Frank's standards it was not actually too bad a journey. Frank controls his own finances and co-manages himself with the verve of the true control freak, and consequently scours the internet for the very very cheapest flights for when we come out to the states. This is actually the first time we have come out at the same time as him (before this he has already been in the country playing solo shows or doing press prior to our arrival), so the unkind could suggest that this is the reason that our flight leaves Heathrow at a very reasonable 1.20 p.m. rather than the usual 7.30 a.m., but I'm confident that this is not true. To give the man his dues, if there is £4.50 to be saved on something he's quite happy to put himself through some kind of stupid inconvenience right along with everyone else.
However, despite the friendly departure hour it hasn't been the most relaxing of flights - we spent 3 hours and 10 minutes on the tarmac at Heathrow while engineers apparently expended their efforts fixing an unspecified fault on the plane before finally leaving; we had pilots who plotted a course through apparently every piece of unpleasant turbulence in the sky; and, when we finally arrived at our connection hub of Atlanta, we were prevented from leaving the plane for a further perspiratory 15 minutes by a faulty jetway, meaning there was a scrum of nervous people whose onwards flights, instead of being the humdrum wait that they had anticipated, had now become a desperate run and pray.
We made our connection, however, arriving in Austin just after 11 p.m. at night to meet tour manager Casey and be taken to our bus for the tour. As will later clearly become a theme, I'm first into my bunk on the bus. Bass player Tarrant, guitarist Ben and keyboardist Matt have a quick trip to a nearby 24 hour store and then follow. Frank, however, goes out and stays out, finally showing up at the festival the following day to perform an effective but somewhat tired show. Not a particular problem - everyone is pretty jet lagged. Conversationally later I ask Frank about his previous evening's activities, and he claims a quiet one, but Frank has a large sliding scale of this kind of thing - sometimes a quiet one means two beers and a night of convivial company, other times it means that he chose not to inject stuff into his eyeballs when everyone else was. After we perform Frank heads into town to drink with friends Fake Problems.
Due to the festival headline band and local laws, despite being done playing by 2 p.m. we leave the festival at close to midnight, being driven through the night by Craig up front while we all sleep in our tomb-like bunks in the back. Frank, to give him his due once more, returned early from the Fake Problems / Rival Schools show and is tucked up well before we leave. After a long and boring journey we arrive in Albuquerque about 8 p.m. The bus door has a busted lock so someone has to stay on board - I run out and get a sandwich and return so everyone else can head out for food and frolics. I'm in bed first.
Jet lag always seems to affect me more on the second day, so I'm waking up every few hours. Frank is in the bunk below me, except he isn't at midnight, or 2.30 a.m., or 5.30 a.m., or 7 a.m. He is there when I get up at 8 though. Jolly good.
So finally we finish rewinding and get to the fucking point, eh? We play our show in Low Spirits, a bar on the edge of a part of Albuquerque that locals tell me is called the war zone. Which is the kind of place gigs always are. It's not packed by any means, but the crowd makes up for numbers with enthusiasm, a couple of them having made the 3 1/2 hour journey from El Paso in Texas. Frank, as he often does, has been keeping an eye on his merch2 throughout the evening, but this particular night this has involved sitting at the bar being bought a steady stream of drinks by well-wishers, who have clearly taken his songs of wistful hedonism to heart and want to be enablers any way they can.
We hit the stage and the two nights of minimal sleep combine with the evening's indulgence to produce a desperately sub-standard show. Bloodshot Frank rambles, from time to time almost incontinently, between songs; he fails to notice his guitar constantly drifting out of tune and I have to nudge him to check it; and worst of all halfway through his voice, battle hardened as it is through the most intense gigging schedule that anyone has undertaken over the last few years, gives up. The dramatic high note in Long Live The Queen is the trigger - it comes out as a squeaky rasp that doesn't even share DNA with the correct pitch, and in the manner of a buzz bomb lays waste to all of the notes surrounding it. From then on I can hear the increasing inaccuracy as Frank pushes his voice harder and harder to try and make the end of the show, but the fatigue won't allow his usual Henry Rollins / iron man push through to the end.
Is the show bad? Do people not enjoy it? That's not the case at all. I'm happy that, as a professional band, nowadays our worst show is still delivering money-worth to an audience. But it could have been better. Not to put it all at the door of the Turner though; everyone could have done better. But the show is all about him; the audience focusses on him almost to the exclusion of all else (I'm confident I could come on naked from the waist down and no-one would notice), so his failings have a more marked effect than if I'm playing slightly off piste.
I'm reading a musical memoir on the tour3. That and the evening's events rev the thought engine. I've been on the road with bands in various capacities since I was 18, and I've been a teetotaler since I was 13; this means that throughout my professional life I've felt somewhat like an alien in the permissive world of rock and roll. There's no place for anyone to be judgmental out here, so that's not my position. But being stymied in my desire to do the best show possible this evening through the actions of the band leader; not having the authority to say anything about it (I'm a backing musician, I'm just supporting his career, and if his favoured approach is to sink into high-functioning alcoholism I have no input to that); and the onset of the sense of tour dislocation makes me want to put it down and analyze it. As much as anything it's an excuse to tell my own history, and try and make sense of why I feel so comfortable in the business of music, but at the same time so alienated and like a skeleton at a wedding. How does, essentially, a puritan fit in to the encouraged permissiveness of rock and roll? Or, more succinctly, what the fuck am I doing here?
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